A very random post
Where am i going? What about all the fuss about stop and smell the flowers,take your time...
It seems i cant do it even if i want to.
I just read somewhere -
First I was dying to finish my high school and start college
And then I was dying to finish college and start working
Then I was dying to get married and have children. And then
I was dying for my children to grow old enough so I could go back
to work. But then I was dying to retire. And now I am dying.
And suddenly I realized I forgot to live.
I have realized quite a few things in the last few months. There was a time when I was earning 40% of what I am earning right now. But, I was happy. Bcoz I was learning too.
Now that I am getting wat I wud expect as a salary, I am not happy.
Lots of funny things also happened. In search of a good architect under whom I cud work and learn, I went to this famous architect who is sensitive towards his design as well (rare combo in the time of concrete and glass boxes). ANd he very politely told me that he is quite embarrased to tell me that the salaries he is paying are nowhere near wat i m already gettin.....they are very less...well...
And now i wonder....do only people in creative fields face this situation or others face such situations as well??...So the ground rule becomes 'either u can earn....or u can learn.' This is only my opinion and if anyone else feels otherwise...well...they have the full right to...
I have been very lucky to study in SPA...I say that because I have met people from other places...and I feel that this college gives you the kind of confidence which makes u realize dat anyhting is possible if u make up ur mind to do it. Be it starting from scratch ur whole thesis wen there's just one week left for ur final submission....or changing the whole design just five hours before the submission....
When i passed out of school...I did not know wat wud I choose as a profession...Never really heard of SPA...But my brother had filled up n number of forms including this one....Just a day before the exam, I was worried....worried because I did not know wat wud be there in the exam...I reached the centre on a bright morning of june,2000 and was glad to find dat it was just the prelim exam and dat there was no negative marking...woww...matlab inki pinki ponki kar sakte hain...and i did dat for some of the questions...and by sheer luck...i passed the prelim...the main exam was on 11th july, 2000 ( ok now i m not subodh of DCH...i just remember it bcoz according to doctors, i was gonna be a bua dat day...my bhabhi had to deliver a baby...i say 'had to'' bcoz..rhea...the baby decided to come a day late...and share kanu's birthday)
So, I went for the main entrance test...and wat a test it was....INTERESTING....very interesting...and fun too.
And I got into the School of Planning and Architecture...I was so happy...and a few days before this, I didnt even know the name of this college...shame on me.
Joined the college, Got ragged...but it was so much fun...and from the first day itself, maroed nightouts to finish submissions...no wonder i still sleep late at night...no matter how sleepy i am..
And on our fresher's night, we had eggs thrown at us by all the seniors...and then water...and wat not...i remember one of the seniors was also pouring beer on us from the second floor...what a nourishment for our hair...well after dat....it was my first party...first SPA party...got scandalized by a few things...saw people drunk for the first time, saw people dancing crazily for the first time, could smell dope around....dat too for the first time...amazingly good music...and we danced till five in the morning...ohh how i miss those days...
And the years flew by....from sleeping in studios in sleeping bags on the floors to going to ITO paranthe wala at 2 am....from friday night party to monday morning submission....I miss everyhting about my college....
And why i wrote all this.....because I realized dat no matter how confused I am at this point of life...I am sure of one thing....I just love my profession....I coundnt have done anything better than being an architect....And...I AM HAPPY :)
added later - I just noticed that I have written 'i m not happy' and 'i m happy' in the same post and at a very short interval...godd..my mood swings...