A very random post

Where am i going? What about all the fuss about stop and smell the flowers,take your time...
It seems i cant do it even if i want to.

I just read somewhere -

First I was dying to finish my high school and start college
And then I was dying to finish college and start working
Then I was dying to get married and have children. And then
I was dying for my children to grow old enough so I could go back
to work. But then I was dying to retire. And now I am dying.
And suddenly I realized I forgot to live.

I have realized quite a few things in the last few months. There was a time when I was earning 40% of what I am earning right now. But, I was happy. Bcoz I was learning too.
Now that I am getting wat I wud expect as a salary, I am not happy.
Lots of funny things also happened. In search of a good architect under whom I cud work and learn, I went to this famous architect who is sensitive towards his design as well (rare combo in the time of concrete and glass boxes). ANd he very politely told me that he is quite embarrased to tell me that the salaries he is paying are nowhere near wat i m already gettin.....they are very less...well...
And now i wonder....do only people in creative fields face this situation or others face such situations as well??...So the ground rule becomes 'either u can earn....or u can learn.' This is only my opinion and if anyone else feels otherwise...well...they have the full right to...

I have been very lucky to study in SPA...I say that because I have met people from other places...and I feel that this college gives you the kind of confidence which makes u realize dat anyhting is possible if u make up ur mind to do it. Be it starting from scratch ur whole thesis wen there's just one week left for ur final submission....or changing the whole design just five hours before the submission....

When i passed out of school...I did not know wat wud I choose as a profession...Never really heard of SPA...But my brother had filled up n number of forms including this one....Just a day before the exam, I was worried....worried because I did not know wat wud be there in the exam...I reached the centre on a bright morning of june,2000 and was glad to find dat it was just the prelim exam and dat there was no negative marking...woww...matlab inki pinki ponki kar sakte hain...and i did dat for some of the questions...and by sheer luck...i passed the prelim...the main exam was on 11th july, 2000 ( ok now i m not subodh of DCH...i just remember it bcoz according to doctors, i was gonna be a bua dat day...my bhabhi had to deliver a baby...i say 'had to'' bcoz..rhea...the baby decided to come a day late...and share kanu's birthday)
So, I went for the main entrance test...and wat a test it was....INTERESTING....very interesting...and fun too.
And I got into the School of Planning and Architecture...I was so happy...and a few days before this, I didnt even know the name of this college...shame on me.
Joined the college, Got ragged...but it was so much fun...and from the first day itself, maroed nightouts to finish submissions...no wonder i still sleep late at night...no matter how sleepy i am..
And on our fresher's night, we had eggs thrown at us by all the seniors...and then water...and wat not...i remember one of the seniors was also pouring beer on us from the second floor...what a nourishment for our hair...well after dat....it was my first party...first SPA party...got scandalized by a few things...saw people drunk for the first time, saw people dancing crazily for the first time, could smell dope around....dat too for the first time...amazingly good music...and we danced till five in the morning...ohh how i miss those days...
And the years flew by....from sleeping in studios in sleeping bags on the floors to going to ITO paranthe wala at 2 am....from friday night party to monday morning submission....I miss everyhting about my college....
And why i wrote all this.....because I realized dat no matter how confused I am at this point of life...I am sure of one thing....I just love my profession....I coundnt have done anything better than being an architect....And...I AM HAPPY :)

added later - I just noticed that I have written 'i m not happy' and 'i m happy' in the same post and at a very short interval...godd..my mood swings...



Richa has tagged me...i m sure it wud be fun
Here are ten things that nobody/very few people know about me:

# In my 2nd grade, one of my classmate(read guy) held my hand and said' I love u my darling' in my ear. I was on seventh sky for a whole week..

# When i was 6-7, I used to go to the shop next to our house and ask for chocolate and tell the shopkeeper to put it in my father's tab...i did this for almost one whole month...

#I never realized i actually loved my sister before she got married...i regret this now as i have been a bad sister at times...

#I have been in and out of several relationships...almost always being heartbroken...

#The first time i was rejected for an interschool debate, I was devastated...cud not eat, cud not sleep...and cried a lot....I was never rejected ever again...

#I had a major crush on Jugal Hansraj...I still find him very good looking..

#I always wanted to be a doctor....but always knew i wud never be one...

#I was really jealous of a girl whom i used to call my bestfriend in school....

#I am jinxed with footwear...i break one almost every month....and at the wrong time...

#I snort at times(pls read almost rarely) while laughing....gosh..cant believe i wrote this...

And...people who are reading this...and have not done the tag already are tagged now :)


My life has changed quite a lot over the last year....long time since i wrote anything...have so much to blog about...
But...right now m in office...so cannot do all that abhi...

Fist thing first...
Kanu has tagged me...and i'll do anything for her...even come back to my dead blog and start writing again...

So here goes...

Its a very simple questionnaire.... the answers are limited to a word or a phrase!

1. When I look at the stars...I Dream

2. Rains...Make me happy and are worth dancing in.

3. Happiness is...success in any form

4. Books...valuable

5. Men....Cant live with them...cant live without them

6. Love is....and should always be exciting

7. God...belief

8. Summer of 69?...Bryan Adam's hairstyle

9. Pride....says all about me

10. Life...M always high on it.


When to celebrate?

If u want to celebrate.....do u always require an occasion to do it???
and....how do u define an occasion which is worth enough for celebration???

I m just thinking about all this...as for me, it is never necessary...i mean i never need a reason to celebrate...i can celebrate a failure as good as i can a victory....
It seems at times people get so worked up and busy with their career and other tensions that they forget about enjoying...and whenever they think of it..they think they wud never be able to find time for it...

So, what are the special occasions which people should definately celebrate no matter how busy they are...
I think a lot of times birthdays come under this category...
Wud an anniversary come under it???....or wud ur loved one leaving for someplace far for sometime in which u wont be able to meet him or her come under it???.....wouldn't one want to go out and enjoy to the fullest one day so that that memory always remains there in the heart of the one who's leaving????


these were fun...

How You Are In Love
You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You give and take equally in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

In a Past Life...
You Were: A Banished Monk.
Where You Lived: Australia.
How You Died: Buried alive.
Who Were You In a Past Life?

Your Blog Should Be Blue
Your blog is a peaceful, calming force in the blogosphere.You tend to avoid conflict - you're more likely to share than rant.From your social causes to cute pet photos, your life is a (mostly) open book.
What Color Should Your Blog or Journal Be?

You Are 40% Evil
A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.
How Evil Are You?

You Have a Choleric Temperament
You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.
You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.
At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.
What Temperment Are You?


You Are 52% Abnormal
You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul.
You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess.
You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.
You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.
You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?


Alone in the dark..
Like moonlight i stay....


another one fed up...

my friend...Roman..as she likes to call herself...is in the same condition as mine...maybe worse....this is how crazy this office has made her....good she is also leaving this place with me....